The Search Continues...

On the verge of seeing everyone celebrating Valentine's Day in Brazil, I decided I wouldn't be sad just because I'm single. In fact, I realized I have plenty of reasons to be happy! Last year I was in a "serious" relationship. Or at least I thought I was. Actually I knew exactly what was going on, I refused to see it though. Nothing was as I wanted. But it's no surprise love blinds us big time!

This year I have finally called the quits. And even though it still hurts to know that most of what I lived last year was a lie, I'm happy because now I live with the truth. We all know how easy it is to live covering your eyes whenever some bad reality shows up. What few of us know is that sooner or later reality finds you distracted and punches you in the stomach. 

I can still remember when I was 19 and I had a completely different idea of what a perfect date should be like than what I think of it today. Only four years have gone by since then, and so much has changed in my head. I'm really scared about how I might be picking dates in the next five years.

I know now that the famous saying is true: "whatever doesn't kill you make you stronger". I have really become more mature now. 

So I wonder: Is it really amazing being with the same perfect lover forever? No lessons. No growing. Nothing! Is it the ideal thing to be with somebody forever or just until you have nothing left to share? Is forever so perfect as it sounds or is it something we need to leave behind?

Can't answer for everyone, but I'm starting to think forever isn't real and moving on seems to be the wisest choice whenever forever fails.